I finally told her how I felt. Except it wasn’t returned in the way I wanted it to. She told me she had been curious all her college life, and that if I had met her then, then she would have given this a try. But now, she’s at the age in her life where she’s ready to be practical and settle down with someone in the long run, and being with a girl won’t be help especially when it comes to marriage and children.
I am deeply crushed because i love everything about her. To me, she is perfect. Seriously, fuck bad timing.
Is it really worth telling her how I feel? I don’t want to scare her away. But yet I don’t want to continue falling for her if there isn’t going to be anything. I keep looking for these signs that I might just be over analyzing. And I don’t know when the right time to ever bring this up, but one day, it’ll all need to come out.